Monday, September 9, 2013


In case you didn't know, this week is National Suicide Prevention week. 

I've lost an ex-boyfriend to suicide and a friend's brother. I've had a very dear best friend consider it, and I would be lying if I told you I had never thought about it. 

I understand. I've been there. I've been where it feels like there is no turning back. Everything is crashing down around you and you could make it all go away so easily. You're tired of crying, of feeling anxious. You're tired of being angry, even when sometimes you don't know why you are angry.

Even though there are plenty of people that care, they can't ever understand what you are going through. I get it because I still feel this way.

I've learned that there are several people that will never understand what I've been through, or what I continue to go through on a daily basis. But I have also learned that for the amount of people who don't understand, there are twice as many who do understand. 

There is no better love, than the love of a stranger. 
How does it make you feel that someone would love you so much to save your life, even if the only thing they knew about you was your name? 

I hate when people say things like "the world needs you." It's a cliche. The world would never know that I was gone. But what kept me here were the people that would have known I was gone. The people that would have to remember me every day for the rest of their lives because I didn't realize that once I hit bottom the only place to go was up. 

Suicide is a serious thing.
Suicide prevention is an even more serious thing. 

If you need help. If you need someone to bring you back down.
 If you are having trouble connecting with reality. 
CALL - 1-800-273-8255
or call me. I'd be more than willing. 
Email me, and I'll give you my number to put on speed dial.

If you know someone who may be a danger to themselves, do something. 


  1. Thank you for this. I've been there too and it's a place where almost nothing can reach in and help. There's no reason for anything you're feeling and there's no reasoning your way out of it.

    Michelle @ Mishfish13


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