Tumblr is ridiculously addictive. Not only does it spend hours amusing me but it also confirms that there are plenty of people that think in the same weird fashion that I do. It's very reassuring. Recently I am across this post :
DO YOU EVER NEED TO JUST TAKE SOMEONE BY THE SHOULDERS AND YELL “I CARE ABOUT YOU A LOT AND I NEED AFFIRMATION THAT YOU ACTUALLY WANT ME IN YOUR LIFE” AT THEM BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO DO THAT A LOT
Okay don't think I am crazy yet because I am pretty sure quite a few people struggle with knowing if someone actually cares about them or not. Even though most consider me an asshole (and I will not disagree) I am also a very loving and loyal person. I really do care about everyone no matter how close the friend or acquaintance.
I spend an unhealthy amount of time wondering if these people would do the same for me as I would do for them. - Recently I've had to tell myself "Welcome to the real world Allison. It's every man for himself." Okay, a bit dramatic? Yes. But this is a big deal! How do I survive in a world when I would drop whatever for whoever just for the simple fact that they are another human being?
It's not that I feel like these people owe me anything, because they don't. And I especially don't want people to feel like they owe me because I helped them once. I just want an unspoken mutual agreement that we have each others back. I just want to know that if the situation were to arise we would do the same for each other.
Let's not get it twisted either. This is not about some guy that I am dropping everything for yet can't understand if he likes me back. This is about everyone, friendships included. So do you think I've officially lost my mind? Or does anyone else out there understand what I am trying to say?
On a more pleasant note, let's link up with I Wore Yoga Pants to Work
My girl Miley doing her thang.
and I am about to do mine at work, all weekend.